After being diagnosed with breast cancer, Mouli Rylatt went online to describe her experiences.
She explained how she was a 41-year-old married GP who had been on chemotherapy constantly since May 2012.
“I remember the shock of being told I had terminal cancer. Walking out of the consultation felt so unreal, it felt like walking through treacle,” she wrote last October in a blog in support of Secondary Breast Cancer Awareness Day.
“Cancer has taken away so much including my chance to be a mother and my chance to give back the care my mother gave me. I have had to retire. I was a GP (and loved my job), but because my only treatment option was chemotherapy, I wasn’t safe to see sick patients.
“I have had to build a new set of roles for myself in order to repair the loss of self-esteem, loss of body confidence and loss of my vocation.
“Mostly I feel desperately sad about leaving my husband who I love to bits. He is such a wonderful man, yet he will be widowed so young. I feel terribly guilty for the pain that my cancer inflicts on people that love me.”
Mouli’s funeral will be held today (Thursday) at 1.30pm at St Mary’s Church, Walkley
Her husband, Jim, described her as “beautiful, intelligent, loving and vivacious.
“She made a difference to a lot of people’s lives. I’ve been overwhelmed by the amount of contact from people, some of whom I didn’t even know.”
Mouli - a teenage nickname that stuck - became a GP in Grenoside in December 2009 after spells in practices on the Manor, Elm Lane and Firth Park.
She switched careers, going to Sheffield Medical School after initially graduating in archaeology and ancient history at Birmingham University and spending three years in archaeology in Sheffield where she met Jim.
“She developed an interest in becoming a GP,” he said. “She really loved the face-to-face interaction with people.”
One of her best friends, Kate Souper, said: “She was an amazing person. She was really determined and great fun. She was inspiring, optimistic and caring. She was a jewel.”
Mouli was diagnosed with primary breast cancer in 2011 and secondary in 2012. She died on December 19 after being treated at Weston Park Hospital,
Donations are being made to Weston Park Hospital Cancer Charity and Breast Cancer Care.
Mouli wrote: “Breast Cancer Care’s Living with Secondary Breast Cancer monthly meetings are fantastic. I always feel so positive when I leave. We spend our time laughing and talking about our holidays, talking about how to look good despite missing boobs and large tummies thanks to treatment. Everyone there understands what life is like with secondary breast cancer because we are all in the same boat.”